When you find school work hard
Beckie Littler,
31st May 2018
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I was thinking about school today. Lots of my family are moving on to new things and the youngest member is starting nursery this year. It’s in these moments that you can’t help but reflect on your own school life.
One thing is certain: school wasn’t easy for me.
One thing is certain: school wasn’t easy for me.
I struggled in my first year and this meant that I dropped down two classes, into one of the lower classes. It then took me until year nine to get back up to a decent level in the school system.
Then I chose my options, which were performing arts, (because it looks good on a CV), double science because I wanted to work with animals, and I also had to take French, which I enjoyed, but never did well in because none of my class wanted to learn.
My ‘options’ was two years of subjects that I had chosen, but to be honest I didn’t get a good grade in any of them.
My ‘options’ was two years of subjects that I had chosen, but to be honest I didn’t get a good grade in any of them.
BTEC performing arts was basically a theatre club that you get graded on. I enjoyed the script writing part of this course as I have always loved plays and particularly comedy sketches. I really did enjoy this class for the first month or so. Then it became obvious that there were three girls in the class who far exceeded my abilities. So I started to keep my head down and try not to get noticed by the teacher. I passed this course, and by passed I mean literally I just about passed it.
I also took double science because I wanted to work with animals. I wanted to get into college and needed a C in double science to get in. But I hated it!!!
It was really hard and I was by far one of the least intelligent people in that class. I had to work really hard to pass my double science, and there were many times I didn’t believe that I could do it, but I knew how important it was for my future. The physics and chemistry lessons I found really hard. Physics is science and maths combined so needless to say I sucked at it. It was the hardest subject I could have been doing.
I also had the challenge of having none of my friends in those classes, which really wasn’t good. Thankfully I am not a huge people person so this didn’t bother me too much.
As I look back at all my struggles though, I can see how every experience I had in school contributed to making me who I am today.
As I look back at all my struggles though, I can see how every experience I had in school contributed to making me who I am today.
My options taught me the consequences of my decisions, and to think ahead and those girls in performing arts taught me that we can’t all be good at everything.
Ultimately though I learnt something that I still hold dear today. When everything was stripped away, and my friends weren’t in science with me, and I felt worthless in performing arts, and was rubbish at science and maths, but needed it for college, God came through for me in those moments.
Reading things in the Bible that told me that I was worth it to God, made me feel worth something. God helped me to achieve my qualifications and I now hold a diploma in animal management.
Just because I felt under-qualified and inferior to the people around me, that didn’t make God love me less.
Just because I felt under-qualified and inferior to the people around me, that didn’t make God love me less, it just made me love God more.
If you can relate to anything I have written, then maybe you feel like you need help. Please know, that God will help you. I know, because he helped me.
