What I did for love

Jessica Simm, 7th Oct 2017
Tags: Life Blog Jesus Love Relationships

A little while back, a song entered the charts called 'What I Did For Love'. The song did well and still remains popular. Personally I liked this song a lot, not for its great tune or it's well written lyrics, but because of its title. The title of 'What I Did For Love' made me stop and question what I have done and what I continue to do in my own life to feel loved. 

As a generation, we strive to be loved, whether we know it or not. Everything we do and say, listen to and watch, wear and upload seems to have an impact on how we are perceived and ultimately how we are accepted. In this blog, I hope to not only tell you my own experience of striving for acceptance, but also how we have already been accepted and are truly deserving of ultimate love.

A few years ago I was in a relationship where I was trying to be someone that I wasn't. It was my first 'grown up' relationship, so I really wanted to give it my best shot and wanted to try my best to make it work.

I wanted to feel loved and accepted by the guy I was with, but through that I lost a sense of identity.

I wanted to feel loved and accepted by the guy I was with, but through that I lost a sense of identity. That ended up marring my view of love and left me angry and isolated. Everything from the clothes that I wore, the hobbies I engaged in and the company I kept, were driven from my desire to fulfil the ideal of a fantasy girlfriend that I thought I needed to be to meet his checklist.

At first I thought I had brought it upon myself; that it was my doing because of bad choices I had made. For a little while I accepted it as just my new normality, but as time went on, I knew that something wasn't right and surely I was worth so much more.

I was worth so much more.

My escape from this situation came when I was reminded that I was already more than enough and that I already surpassed what it took to be loved. All I needed to do was to be me. 

You see, whether you personally believe it or not, I full-heartedly believe in God. I also truly believe that he sent his Son to save me through the biggest act of love the universe will ever know. 

That act of love and sacrifice means that neither myself, anyone that came before me, or anyone who follows me, will ever have to be more than the amazing creation they are, in order to be loved and accepted. He rescued us from the darkness and despair that surrounds us and that's as true today as it was when Jesus first came to Earth. 

Now when I think about 'What I Do For Love', I think about how God uses my past to journey with me towards an incredible future. Earlier this year I had the privilege of marrying an amazing man who treats me well and loves me for who God made me to be. This is just the start of an awesome adventure.

I'm excited that God provides me with opportunities to tell others of His ultimate love and acceptance, but that He will also never cease to grow and mould me into something beautiful.

I am loved and accepted...always!

Although my past is on occasion something sad to reminisce about, it's actually an incredible reminder of my powerful and awesome relationship with God and that no matter how messed up and bleak my world seems to get sometimes, I am loved and accepted...always!